Skirball

Tuesday we headed out to the Skirball Museum in Sherman Oaks with some friends. I had heard such great things about this exhibit and it was on my bucket list of things to do before we move. It definitely didn't disappoint. The boys loved seeing Noah's ark, all the animals and playing with all the interactive toys. This place is a kids dream! We will for sure be making a trip back soon.

look who lost his first tooth...

The day finally came for Crew who lost his very first tooth. He has been waiting for this day to happen forever now and is thrilled that the tooth fairy brought him "3 dollars and 4 quarters". He tells us that his name is "Toothless" and not Crew anymore. We love you Toothless!

words.

I've had a lot of emotions running through me lately and I feel like the best way for me to express them is through words. This last year has been one of the toughest. I guess you could say there has been a lot of change in my life. I found out we were pregnant with baby Navy and as excited as I was to have a little girl, the hormones definitely came rushing in and I never have felt so down before. I should have been excited (which I truly was) but it was really hard to show or express my excitement. I was hurt. I felt alone and I felt forgotten. 
I never really thought anything of the baby blues until I experienced them for myself. They are awful. And they are still here. Better, but still around. I am just not myself and I don't like it. It's been really hard feeling this way while being treated like you don't exist. I'm trying to move forward and taking one day at a time. 
On top of not being myself or in my real element, i lost something. I have learned a lot. Your true friends stay with you no matter what. They understand your trials, they love you and genuinely care about you.
I'm terrified for Navy to grow up and make girl friends. I don't want her to ever feel hurt or taken advantage of. I don't want her to ever feel the way I have felt this last year. No one deserves that. No one deserves to feel left in the dust and brushed under the rug. Alone. No one deserves to not feel appreciated or used. 
I have prayed for strength and prayed for me feeling down to go away. Losing a friend hurts and I feel like a part of me will be missing forever. My prayers have helped and been answered in the simplest of ways but it's hard to just let go of something that has been a part of you for years now.
I'm starting to feel at peace and hopefully these baby blues go away sooner than later. I know i am a good person, a good friend and i know what my motivations are. I only have good intentions and know that we all can be misunderstood sometimes.
I'm grateful I have my sisters and my mom who are my best friends. I love each and every one of them and feel so blessed that we are all so close to one another. They have all helped lift me up this last year and are great examples to me. I strive to be more like them every day. 
I truly cherish the great friendships I have made. I am thankful for those knowing my situation and being there for me. There when I need them the most. Without you, I don't know how I would be getting through this.

   

iphone/instagram pics

Jackson and the boys...fresh haircuts!

Navy's first drive to AZ

Tiny little Reese....we got to meet her for the first time

Pano Bianco with Brooke and Josh while in AZ

It haled at our house

Hudson is obsessed with this little girl; well, I think we all are!

Cousins on Navy's blessing day

Crew's radish he planted and grew at school

sleeping beauty

were catching a lot of smiles from this little girl lately...

Hud and Tater at the Griffith Observatory

Navy's second trip to Disneyland

Disney days...

getting our Easter craft on

more disney days...

Navy did great her 3rd time at Disneyland

a walk to 7-11 for some treats

more smiles

Kindergarten shots for Crew

this picture melts me

st. patricks day

Griffith Observatory

Our best attempt for a cousin picture

downtown LA

love these two lovebirds so much.

View of the sunset over the ocean and west hollywood

Sunday Afternoon we decided to head to the Griffith Observatory. The views were especially amazing on this night. It was the clearest I have ever seen it up there. The kids had a great time looking through the telescopes and learning about our solar system. This will definitely go down as a night I won't forget!